This short wrap-up does very little to explain the ups and downs of Lindsay’s experience, so watch the entire interview here to really feel her shift.
Something ain’t rightLindsay knew for many years that she had this dream of a space for young people that was safe and healing. She wanted a space that was not school or home or their regular locations so that this space would be special. She wanted kids to walk into the door of a sanctuary where they could be creative, mix with peers and be safe. When she survived the Minneapolis bridge collapse in 2007, she knew the years she had been preparing to be an Executive Director one day, needed to be put into play now. She felt she survived for something and it was time to make an impact. For years she put the blood, sweat and tears into her organization running everything from financial and funding to unclogging the toilet and cleaning up each night. She felt if she could just hang in, there’d be a paid position finally and she would be able to work for the organization instead of running it on top of another job. In 2015, she began to rethink her intention to be the Executive Director of the organization. Despite all of the hard work she had put into to its start-up, she wasn’t sure it was the role she really wanted.
ConnectionLindsay spent some time connecting to her spirit and asking herself what she really wanted. She’d worked really hard, studied and successfully grew this non-profit just as she had dreamed so this could be her full-time passion, but now she wasn’t so sure what she wanted. She had to really consider if all that she had been doing is what she wanted to do permanently. Beyond that, her position would be tied to how well the organization on a whole, not just her position so it might create more stress for her.
A-HALindsay felt a little confused but then she realized:
My dreams are allowed to change.She wanted more than what the position entailed. She was capable of doing it after years of studying, researching and implementing. She’d done exactly what she originally intended: create a safe, healing space for young people. She just didn’t want the role. So she shifted to serving on the board of directors and spends her time volunteering for the things she really enjoys doing.