When I was a little girl I was a dancer. Almost since I could walk, I was dancing. I loved music and it moved me deeply. I was excited to have lessons and my first tutu. I excelled so they put me in competition. I did well and was even competing in higher age groups, however the more awards I won, the less I really enjoyed dancing.
You might think it would be the opposite. The trophies were a marker of the moments of success. Yet, the more I won, the less I wanted to dance. By 11 I completely quit dancing.
You see when I started competing in the higher levels, everything had to be perfect. From the costume and make-up to each point of the toe. I felt like I was wrong more than I was right and everything seemed focused on the mistakes. Perfection sucked all the joy out of the rhythm and I gave up something I truly loved rather than hear the constant criticism.
How are we killing our creativity today?
I know I can let someone talk me out of my great ideas and let challenges bring my interest level down. Maybe you do too. So we give up those things that give us life and energy instead of doing them just for the fun. We allow outside forces to control our destiny and take away our joy.
We need to allow our creativity to be imperfect. We need to remember the joy and presence we feel when we do the things we love. We need to turn the music up and drown out the haters and the perfectionistas. When you find the thing that allows you to be 100% present, hang on to that and don’t let anything change it for you.
I don’t want to live without the feeling of dancing. I did it for many years. Now I dance in my kitchen, with my dog. We don’t care about fancy moves or perfect toes. We just enjoy the flow.
When in doubt, just show up and dance like no one’s watching.